Friday, September 25, 2009

Some thoughts

I plan on making several updates full of pictures this weekend.

I feel like I don't have the right understanding of what I want this blog to be.

Because I am in a constant state of not-quite-understanding-everything on a daily basis, I am starting to feel cerebrally-challenged. Like my brain just won't do everything I need/want it to. Perhaps this is why I am taking just pleasure in the simple joy of the Sookie Stackhouse books. When I should be reading non-fiction and doing creative writing.

However, in a similar vein, my brain does certain things I wish it wouldn't do.
a) I am INCAPABLE of being spontaneous. And so I feel bad because my adviser invited me out with his friends earlier today, but I had my proficiency test class, and felt tired after it, and decided that I would go home because my adviser and his friends probably were somewhere not in Tenjin and that would mean I would have to figure out how to get there, and that just sounded exhausting, plus there is also still a slight chance that I am getting sick (but hopefully not with swine flu), and so I emailed him saying I wouldn't be coming tonight but another time, and I didn't hear back from him, and then I called to apologize, and he said it's ok, but I still felt bad. How lame am I? Why can't I just DO things without planning them? Why am I so boring?
b) I am often told I am very "Japanese," which is a compliment to a certain extent, but for one thing I simply do not wish to be Japanese, plus acting "Japanese" means that I am constantly worrying about how something I say or do will affect others, which really makes me feel nervous and guilty and paranoid and all kinds of unpleasant things, on quite a regular basis. I wish I could just turn my stupid conscience off and do, as they say, a GAIJIN SMASH. Ugh, turn off turn off!

It's Friday night and I live in a wonderfully big, exciting city. Why the hell am I at my computer and getting ready for bed?

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Recent eats

Black sesame tan tan noodle soup. It's spicy and healthy and delicious.

It came with collagen. You toss it in and it melts, and apparently it is soooo good for your skin. Whatever. Japanese people are OBSESSED with collagen. It's in everything these days, from instant soups to energy drinks to makeup remover towelettes. I think it is a steaming pile of BS, but when something catches on in Japan, there are yenners to be made, and so it continues.

A cheese cookie from Huis ten Bosch. No, not the palace in the Netherlands. The Dutch-themed amusement park in Nagasaki prefecture! The Dutch settled in Nagasaki way back when, and they still have a strong relationship.

Gigantic pot of veggie-licious curry. I prefer my curry without meat. Has onions, garlic, carrots, potatoes, green bell pepper, and eggplant in it. I have to admit, I might just be the Curry Mistress. It was soooooooo good. And I will be eating it all weekend.

It looks weirdly dark in this picture, but is much closer to the color in the first picture. Still delicious. Itadakimaaaaasu!
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